on the dl

in baseball terms, i am on the disabled list. 4 days after my last post, i was in the baggage compartment of my bus loading some of the players bags. i was squatting and turned to my left. my body twisted but my right foot did not. i crushed the cartilage and the doctor took me off the road. the prognosis is surgery to repair or replace the medial meniscus, drain fluid, remove bone spurs and repair some other damage due to arthritis.
workman's comp has been an experience. while i feel fortunate to work for an employer who pays into workman's comp, it has been hard to survive on about 1/3 of my regular pay. don't get me wrong, i am not whining. the insurance company has been absolutely phenomenal with the service they have given me. lisa, earnestine and sheila have been professional and after a while it became personal. (no, not like that!!!)
my surgery date is september 5th and i am actually looking forward to it. my doctor is dr. paul naylor and i have been a patient of his for almost 12 years. he is an incredible doctor as well as a person. he is the kind of doc that if you have an appointment at 10:30, you are seeing him at 10:30. very rare these days. i trust him to the point that if he told me he had to cut off my ears to make my knee better i would not question it. probably a bad analogy but you get the point.
long story to get to the point. during this time, i spent a week with my 15 year old. her mother moved many years ago to franklin and i miss seeing her so much. it is so good to spend time with her. my 2 youngest started school and my son made the move up to middle school. i cried the first day of school. i dropped him off and he was so big and mature acting. i realized he is not a little boy anymore. he has adjusted well to such a big change. he and his sister have never been separated as far as school goes and it turns out it was harder on me than it was on them. if i had been working, i would have missed all of that experience. as far as my youngest daughter, it was like she had no summer break. next year may be different as she moves up to middle school. being off has enabled me to experience all of this as well as my spiritual side. sometimes in life at best we acknowledge God. slowing down like this has allowed me to "waller" in the spirit and meditate. it has gotten to the point i am thanking God for the injury. living where i live the only distractions i have is getting out to school or the store. other than that, God's creation has become more "personal". i have been able to reflect on how big yet personal he is. genesis 1:1 has become more real and tangible. he did a pretty incredible job!!! just thinking about how big "the heavens and the earth" are then realizing he knows how many hairs i have on my head is kinda cool!!!
i would not recommend an injury just to grow in your spiritual life. but if that is what it will take for me to experience the things i have, i pray for another one. soon!!!
until next time...